> Hi(gh)!
>
> Am 22.01.2013 15:01, schrieb Cousin Ricky:
>
>> Do you have a fundamentalist Christian background?
>
> No, not at all - it is a purely self-taught neurosis! It is not a
> genuine Christian faith, just a result of my compulsive searching for
> things to fear! And, the Christian/Islamic concept of hell is the most
> fearsome idea man at all is able to conceive, so I went for it... since
> early childhood, I am addicted to fear! In earlier years, I had
> different fear themes, such as contracting some deadly disease (most
> favourite: AIDS and rabies), ending up in an extermination camp in some
> future Orwellian turbo-fascist regime, becoming psychotic, becoming
> demented due to premature Alzheimer's or BSE, or even the fear of
> reality being in fact a Matrix-like setting, with myself being nothing
> but a brain floating in some liquid nutrient solution in a mad
> scientist's laboratory - or even being the only conscious being in the
> whole universe! But hell is definitely unbeatable when it comes to
> inducing fear! Fear, fear, fear - that has been my life during the last
> 40 years! And only now I try to take some measures against this
> obsession... by retreating (mostly) from the Internet, limiting my
> activities to e-mail, usenet and telnet.
>
> See you on my screen!
>
> Yadgar
Yikes.. Yeah, ok, that is definitely an.. interesting.. compulsion. Kind 
of an extreme version of some people's adventure seeking, which is, at 
least partly, neurological. Kind of makes me wonder if that is the case 
here too, then.

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