Hi(gh)!

Am 22.01.2013 15:01, schrieb Cousin Ricky:

> Do you have a fundamentalist Christian background?

No, not at all - it is a purely self-taught neurosis! It is not a 
genuine Christian faith, just a result of my compulsive searching for 
things to fear! And, the Christian/Islamic concept of hell is the most 
fearsome idea man at all is able to conceive, so I went for it... since 
early childhood, I am addicted to fear! In earlier years, I had 
different fear themes, such as contracting some deadly disease (most 
favourite: AIDS and rabies), ending up in an extermination camp in some 
future Orwellian turbo-fascist regime, becoming psychotic, becoming 
demented due to premature Alzheimer's or BSE, or even the fear of 
reality being in fact a Matrix-like setting, with myself being nothing 
but a brain floating in some liquid nutrient solution in a mad 
scientist's laboratory - or even being the only conscious being in the 
whole universe! But hell is definitely unbeatable when it comes to 
inducing fear! Fear, fear, fear - that has been my life during the last 
40 years! And only now I try to take some measures against this 
obsession... by retreating (mostly) from the Internet, limiting my 
activities to e-mail, usenet and telnet.

See you on my screen!

Yadgar

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