On Tue, 22 Jan 2013 09:01:52 -0500, Cousin Ricky wrote:

> =?ISO-8859-1?Q?J=F6rg_=27Yadgar=27_Bleimann?= <yaz### [at] gmxde> wrote:
>> In fact, my most severe addiction (or better, compulsion as it gives me
>> not even short-time positive feelings of satisfaction, only mental
>> pain)
>> is googling several times a day for the catchwords "sin" or "hell", to
>> land up on Christian fundamentalist websites telling me that I, as a
>> homosexual unbeliever, am heading straight towards a place and state
>> infinitely worse than Auschwitz! Websites which tell me that even the
>> faintest hunch of independent, individualist thinking is nothing less
>> than spitting into the face of God Almighty, unforgivable unless I
>> surrender to Fundamentalist doctrine and become a robotic slave of what
>> they call "Jesus Christ". There must be tens of thousands of such
>> websites, also in German language... and I'm simply addicted to
>> religiously induced fear!
> 
> You must stop Googling "sin" and "hell," and stay away from
> fundamentalist Web sites.  Why torture yourself?  See if there are any
> atheist, humanist, or freethought groups in your community; they can
> help you deal with social surroundings that condemn you for who you are.

It's easy to say "well, stop doing that, then" - but as he says, it's a 
compulsion, and something that it sounds like he's seeking help for.

Joerg, I do hope you get the help you need.  There are far more people 
who are accepting of your lifestyle and who don't condemn you for it.  
You have friends here (I've not talked to you much, but I always have 
found your posts and images interesting) who like you for who you are.  
When the compulsion strikes to seek out these fundamentalist hate sites, 
remember that above all - and if your therapist isn't helping you 
overcome the compulsion, then you might ask him/her if they know of 
another therapist who might be able to help you more.  It does take time, 
of course, to overcome deeply ingrained behaviours and compulsions, but 
it's not impossible.

Best,

Jim

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