"Invisible" <voi### [at] devnull> wrote in message 
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>>    Yes, recruiting 30 or so *two months* ago. It's a different story 
>> *today*.
>
> There website still lists a huge heap of vacancies. I think some of them 
> are even new ones that weren't there before. [I can't be sure, there's too 
> many of them.]
>
>>    Phone them. Ask for an interview, and if they say no, at least you 
>> gave it your best shot.
>
> As I say, they don't actually give a phone number for job enquiries. I 
> guess I could reply to their email though. (Assuming the address is real, 
> and not just some automaton.)

    Have you done any research on them? If they are as big as they sound, 
then there is a phone number there, find it.


>>     Jeez Andrew, you need to stop thinking like that. Seriously.
>
> Yeah, well, when decade after decade elapses, and despite your efforts you 
> experience nothing but failure after failure after failure, it's extremely 
> hard to stay positive, much less motivated.
>
> Seriously, I keep acting like I'm some highly intelligent dude who 
> *deserves* to be in a technical job. But what evidence is that actually 
> based on? I have the lowest IQ on the whole of the POV-Ray server. I 
> nearly failed my degree. I'm supposedly an ace programmer but I can't do 
> either C or C++, the languages used for 98% of all computer programming. 
> I've been coding for decades, but I have not one single finished program 
> to show for all my efforts. I'm supposedly an excellent writer, but I 
> can't write reports. Who the hell am I trying to kid? I'm nobody!

     Don't be stupid. You're not a 'nobody'. You have everything going for 
you, you're young, clever, and trust me, there's a good job waiting for you 
out there somewhere.


>
> My entire life thus far has been a near-complete waste of time. No matter 
> what I do, I never succeed at anything. I'm hardly ever happy, just 
> constantly depressed. What do I have to live for? What is there for me to 
> look forward to? Why should I even go on?? Why bother being alive if you 
> can't have happiness?

     You think your life has been a waste, you should try mine buddy. I'd 
swap with you any day of the week. Seriously, over the last 7 or 8 years, my 
life has been turned upside down, and so much so that I now live alone and 
have to fend for myself. I've *never* been alone - never. It's hard, it's 
boring, I find myself talking to myself just so I can practice speaking. 
Yeah, seriously. I don't eat well, I have stress-induced psoriasis at the 
moment which covers me from my shoulders up. I look like a lizard in the 
mornings. In 2002, I had stress related alopecia - this was brought on after 
I saved my wife's life. I had about 5 or 6 large bald patches and they 
didn't quite meet, so imagine a bunch of fields with hedges dividing them, 
the hedges being the hair that I still had, that's what I looked like. I had 
to deal with people looking like that. Don't ask me how or why because I'm 
not gonna say, but I've saved my wife's life twice now, and it's *the* most 
scariest thing *ever*.

   Yeah, so you go on about your crap, shitty life mate, I'm all ears.

     ~Steve~

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