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stbenge wrote:
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> Why are you on it? You're probably not one of the 8% who goes psychotic.
>
> I'm bipolar. Two years ago I was being treated with two antidepressants
> and no mood stabilizers... a bad situation for somebody prone to have
> manic episodes :O
>
Ahh, I'm not bipolar, It's really a long story, but basically it boils
down to a mood disorder (without getting into the details of it) I will
say that it has helped immensely, I'm able to cope with stressful
situations much better.
A bit of a background on all of this:
My one psychotic episode,
Actually, it all sort of started when my first wife left me (a good
cause for depression) Before that had happened, I had known something
wasn't quite "right" with me... I just couldn't place it. A few months
after she left me, I began to hear strange things, like people taunting
me, but I couldn't figure out where or how, it all seemed to be coming
from outside the walls of my house. As it progressed the voices became
more real, I had no insight at the time, I assumed I was psychic. Then,
things sort of spiraled from there. I remember approaching a couple of
sherrif's deputies stating I knew them previously, after wandering the
halls of a rather large church going on about how the CIA was monitoring
everyone with cameras. Everywhere. Seriously paranoid delusions. I
actually believed what I was saying... Only I lied about one thing, it
was the FBI doing the monitoring, not the CIA. They were in
communication with me, through some sort of device. Anyway, I got some
rather strange reactions when I started to warn people about the
"surveillence" The deputy radioed for the local police to come. An
officer interviewed me, and I acted very erratically. I took him to my
car. He asked to search the car, I had no problems with that. He asked
me a couple questions about the contents. I answered the questions. He
asked if I was going to head straight home, I answered affirmatively, he
handed my keys to me and let me go. To this day I do not know why he
didn't toss me in the back of his car and cart me off to the hospital.
There's really way more to it than that. I believed for some time that I
was able to speak telepathically to alien entities as well before I got
help.
Once I was on antidepressants and antipsychotics, I was fine. As time
went by, I found I was better able to handle most situations, and would
respond normally to stress. I went off meds for a while (My current wife
met me while I was on meds, and noticed a huge difference in mood. Some
incidents after the baby was born, and she insisted I return to my
psychiatrist, this time prescribing a different antidepressant. It has
really turned me around. I'm definitely more capable of focusing on the
task at hand, and not letting emotions get control of me. I still feel
emotion, but I can control how I react much better. It was almost like a
missing piece to the puzzle was found and put back.
Anyway, I've rattled on enough ... I have no idea what my likelihood of
another psychotic episode in my lifetime will be, though.
I suppose that's why I get a bit annoyed at alphaQuad's seemingly
paranoid ramblings about pharmaceuticals, because many of these
medications do work when used as intended.
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